Used to lock myself up to listen to the still
Started poppin pills on my own to learn a new appeal
Stopped that shit once I saw shit was for real
Was praying for days I could go snatch my dream
Weed in hand bumpin to the new j cole
This record is not intended to glorify drugs at all
From my view it’s a whole different world
From my seat I could hardly see the ball
Blank as fuck as I stare at the wall
How about come down and kill me with a fall
And that’s all positive,
All my life to the game chasing narrow halls
My spot in the trench was the worst of all
Never having enough meant far less of fun
Jokes to you probably makes my tummy turn
How does one exist in life without a chance at all
Now this is all negative
The hope of the life you’ll live in infinity
Wars and rumors of wars now I gotta dock
Bullets flying over my head as I chase the hall
It’s never stopping shoot till I fall
So what I do, cut corners and all?
Killed a man the day he tried to kill me, man
Tucked a cave like the brothers of Benjamin
No wonder niggas killin niggas for the damn bjamin
It’s a metaphor to show that time is short
Fuck these diseases fuckin cutting families off
Fuck life for making people sit and cry
The daily disappointments that tells you all is lost
The devil in your head having a field day like wtf
Fuck that you don’t have it all figured out
Fuck the patterns and stereotypes you forced to face
Fuck that the world wants you at your worst
Fuck that it’s your last card in your pocs
Fuck my choice of words, you probably in awe
Whether positive or negative all that matters is love.